My 3rd Semester

Wow ~ I can't believe I've made it to 3rd semester which means I'm on my way completing my second year here in matriculation . Well I've been given lots of chances to improve myself and I'm grateful for it . I'm trying my best to get the best grades for my result this time and I'm going not to think stuffs like crush thingy on juniors cause it makes me so out of my focus while I'm studying .

And now I'm surrounded by juniors out here so I guess I need to show good things to them and guide them in their studies for they're still new in their 1st semester . Plus , I need to behave myself to overcome all sorts of distraction and also all this procrastination thingy or else , I'm not gonna make it .

Think that's all for today ~

KML (Kolej Matrikulasi Labuan)

It's been a while since I haven't update my blog page ... So right know I'm in Matriculation College in Labuan which is so far away from my hometown ... I've been studying here for like 2 months plus like that ... and still I'm in the process of renewing my studying skills and also how to live by my own ...
I was surprised to see my application into this college was accepted because this is my only choice and also my target to per sue my study ... And I always thank God for giving me another chance to study here ... Lucky me for selected in to the 2 years programme compare to my best friends which is she was selected to be in 1 year programme only ... They say it's hard to study ... And yes I admit that ... Actually be in college is same as in the university ... But in college we're trained how to study in university level and now I can feel the pressure but I try to manage it by making a new strategies ...
All this while, I don't really appreciate TIME ... but now I do ... And I know that, i have to manage everything so I won't have feelings of regret after that ...
Now everything I have to handle all by my own ... I need to learn to manage my budgets, my foods, my daily needs and so on ...
Thank God I met lots of new friends ... They are kind and also friendly ... I learn a lot from them ... they way they thinks and also how to live together as one community !!!

♫♪ Guitar ♪♫

So I've been practicing my guitar for past 3 weeks already and yes my fingers hurt a lot but I ignore it ... playing guitar is fun ... and the best part is when you play the guitar and you sing along with the beat when you strum the 6 strings.

I keep playing Taylor Swift's songs ... she's a great singer, a great guitarist with a great vocal ... I admire her ... I wish I can bought her guitar ... and after I had learn all the chords and the strumming, whenever I visit to the instruments store, my eyes widen to see all the cool electric guitars displayed ... and seriously I wish I can buy them ... but I guess not now ... uhuhu ...

and I wish to have white Epiphone guitar !!!

~ Music is my Life ~

~ KAYA 19 ~

K.A.Y.A = Kuching Archdiocese Youth Apostolate

It was a camp for all the school leavers so I joined it with my fellow friends. So for the first time, I realize that how close can it be to God by learning all the things that I've learn and what I've gained from the camp. I learn to be patience, caring, understanding, hardworking, the importance of togetherness, and LOVE. To see how much LOVE that God had given us and even sacrifice His own precious child, Jesus Christ for all the sins that we've done. Lucky for we who can't feel the burden that He's been carried all the way to Mount Calvary.

During the camp, I did feel the presence of Him and Holy Spirits come to me and actually I did 'feel' it seriously. After the camp and of course we're so gonna miss each other to see how powerful the LOVE BOND that God has made between us and gathered under His name as one community and as a one BIG FAMILY.

Now, after the camp we keep contacting each other through Facebook and it's a relief to have Facebook. Thank You Facebook !!! We share our moments, our pictures and even share information about the latest news regarding church activities. Even though we're not together we're make jokes around with each other and at the same time to remember our mission after this KAYA camp.

To be truth we wished to extend the camp but is not possible for us to do it because it cost lots of money to provide our daily necessaries. But what we want now is to be a good Christians and work for the church now and for the rest of our life. We helped and we gave to those who are needed and for those who are in trouble to spread God's LOVE throughout the whole world. Amen.

Holiday -.-

Holiday really tiring for my mum especially and also not to forget to me myself ...

and yes it does ..

so this coming 28 Dec my friends and I was going to attend a prom night !!!

woooo hoooo !!!

thanks for my mum for the dress and everything !!!

No more STRESS !!!

yay !!! SPM has passed !!! no more stress ... but there's a bit left here for the result especially !!!

Bye Bye SPM !!!

Holiday Again !!!

Monday, Sept 13 - 1000 hour

well Malaysia is known for it's multicultural ...

so when it comes to any celebration, meaning = HOLIDAY !!!

and the same thing happens

to me again where I will have to deal with all the houseworks here

... and make my left hand's fingers all dried and cracked ...why???

because I have to wash dishes, laundry and etc !!!

this driving me NUTS !!! It's hard for me to write with fingers like that ... plus, tonight I have to go for a Physics tuition and my fingers got really pain when it exposed to air-cond especially ...

I only have 45% focus on my study ... and the rest is entertainment and house works ...

that's it ... I wish to have a guy that really can do house works, can cook delicious food, and understands me well, caring, loving and a person who can help others whenever people needs help ... and not to forget he must be funny enough to crack me up all day long ... and plus, I want he to be an outgoing person, spontaneous, clean, always alert, adventurous and soft ...

as conclusion he must be reliable ...

that's all for today ... hmmm ... hope my fingers get well soon ...

All The Best To Me

... August 20, Friday ...

this night I want to sleep quite late, and study my Biology ...

then, go on with my Additional Mathematics ...

Chemistry , then Physics ...

...

thanks to Super Junior ...

...

I won't be bored whenever I want to study ...

for the music that the gave me inspiration and energy ...

better get my engine start !!!

FIGHTING !!!

tension !!!

okay, straight to the point i'm worry right now ... why ??? SPM lah ...

* speechless *

SPM trial exam is coming ... so i gotta do my best for it ... I can't reverse the time and retake the exam ... I need TIME, SPACE and MUSIC ... I just can't study like that only ... I need someone who can study with me ... with Daisy, uuhhhmmm, too far, Fyie, uuhhhmmm ... don't know how to say already ... if everyday I have to face KK then, how can I study ... why must the Form 5 also yang kena attend KK frequently ... don't they know, it's just wasting of time but not all lah ...

now, I don't have much time to do my homeworks either ...

0630 - 1245 = school time

1330 - 1500 = extra class

1500 - 1730 = rest / cleaning / tea-break

1800 - 2000 = tuition

2100 - 0530 = sleep

I hate it !!!

why must got KK ??? and why must take too much until 3 ???

I'm Science students ... PHYSICS, CHEMISTRY, BIOLOGY,ADD MATH is more difficult than ART, GEOGRAPHY, ACCOUNTANCY bah ... don't they realize that ???

Happy + Jealous = ???

teenagers nowadays, well also including me do have to face those feelings ... for me, that feeling turn into STRESS ... that's odd ... we just can't avert that feeling as it comes naturally ...

well, in my case those feelings just like typhoon in me ... and it's hard for me to control them ... but with my friends by my side I feel good again ... SINGLE is good only for temporary period for us students ... LOVE is not going anywhere ... God knows everything ... He'll give someone who is more special and better for me ... I trust Him ...

we can't force LOVE ... LOVE cannot be shown by kissing, hugging each other ... its to see how we care for someone that we love and never let them hurt by us ... show them how you care about them and living a SINGLE live doesn't mean you will be LONELY ... people around you still care and love you more than you know ...

and being HAPPY seeing your love ones beloved and live with their love ones and there is NO POINT for you to be JEALOUS and instead you want them to live happily ever after ... let they live with their own way ...

SPM is coming soon AAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHH !!!!!!!!

wow ... I still can study when I was in Form 3 ... but this year ... waaaaa ... lot of things going on ... the KK stuff really buat KACAU lah ...

and this is our last year as a SENIOR in Form 5 ... i'm gonna miss how we have to wait for our turn during recess just to buy foods ...

we'll be free after SPM ... no more stay until evening for the extra class, the KK and after SPM ... I can't wait to take the driving license and roaming around the city with my friends ... ahahahaha ...

but the main point now here is the SPM ...

SPM is the most scariest things ever in my life ...

the subject increase ... and plus, we are the Science students ...

so far Physics, Chemistry, Biology I can go along very well ...

But I want to pass my Pendidikan Moral, Bahasa Malaysia, Mathematics and Additional Mathematics ...

I'm still struggling with my Additional Mathematics and my Mathematics ...

I really want them to get a least A or B+ ...

and not to forget my Pendidikan Moral with the 36 definisi and the nilai also ...

no more KK ... hope I can study quite well ... and think for my future and my dreams also ...

Holiday making me go CRAZY !!!

yup ... as the title said this holiday really get me sicker, crazier, lazier and no more time for me to do my revision ... as my mother is not here ... it was a big mistake actually ... well she shouldn't mad at me when she came back from kampung and she better don't ask me why ... doing to much washing at home ... really makes my hand peeled off ... i mean the skin just dried up and it feels so itchy ... DAMN i hate so much ...

well, i think quite a lot this holidays ... recall back what i've done wrong at school ... and I was trying to forget 'bout him but i just can't do it ... i keep try to remain distance from him ... i know he has been doing good for me ... and it's time for me to pay him back all the good things that he had done to me ... and while the other guy, hhhmmmmm ... wanna know who ??? well IT'S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS !!! ahahaha ... sorry guys really can't tell you about this ... well i absolutely never mentioned about his name in my blog ... and the only person who knew about this are only God and me ... ahahahaha ... well the second guy, really making me fall for him more ... i love his style, not too thin and not too short ... i guess we have the same interest that is in dancing ... wow ... love his dancing so much ... full of energy and charisma ... that's what i like ...

these days, since mom left home to Mukah, my cat, Chimew getting more sicker ... MAN !! i though he was going to end his life ... but i try to help him ... maklumlah sudah tua ... yup ... that cat alone came to our house and 'meow' in front of our house ... and i still remember that day ... it was Sunday 2007 if was not mistaken ... he was still young, small, cute and got his innocent faces on it ... and that morning, my mom quicky wake me up and tells me that there's a cat IN our house ... and you know how happy i was ... wow ... can't believe it ...

then my cousin from my mother's relatives came here and it's already one month since she's with us here in Kuching ... well she's just finish her study at KML, Labuan ... wow ... it was amazing to hear their story of how they live there, how they study, dressing, living and it is totally fun !!! i really wanted to go there ... but first i want to know in which major i wanted ... after that, we bring her to go around the Kuching ... when we go to Boulevard, sana kan ada penimbang berat ... so kami dua try lah ... 20 cent person each ... when she get up on the scale well the weight is kept secret ... while me, i was really hoping that i can gain more weight up to 50+ kg ... but in fact it shows 48 kg only
!!! why ??? because i used to dance a lot at my living room ... you know a way to decrease your weight is dance and dance and dance and dance ... wow ... never think that it works on me ...

and so guys ... i've been typing to much there ... and i guess that's all lah ... bye !!!
... Happy Holiday ...

Exams !!!

Finally!!! The day has come ...

Exam - I can have a short nap while waiting for the bell to ring

Exam - I can see my improvement

Exam - I can show my skills in solving problems

Exam - I can go crazy especially during History paper

Exam - Make my adrenaline rush while doing Chemistry and Physics

wow ... so many things can happen during exams ... I know it really makes me tired and sometimes bored but I kindda like it though ...

I keep study and study to achieve my target ...

"GO AHEAD, STAY AHEAD"

Normal

I wish I can have those feelings that I've been keeping before ...

and again, I was hoping if you can understand this feeling ...

whenever I into that eyes that keep staring at me,

really makes me insane ...

Wanna have a happy times like last time ...

it's so hard to find a person like you ...

and your name will be never erased from my heart ...

Seeing you smile from a far is not enough for me to have you in me ...

I shouldn't have ignoring you ...

or .... (to be continue)

♫ ♪ You Are My All In All ♪ ♫

You are my strength when I am weak

You are the treasure that I seek

You are my all in all

Seeking You as a precious jewel

Lord, to give up I'd be a fool

You are my all in all

Jesus, Lamb of God

Worthy is Your name

Jesus, Lamb of God

Worthy is Your name

Taking my sin, my cross, my shame

Rising up again I bless Your name

You are my all in all

When I fall down You pick me up

When I am dry You fill my cup

You are my all in all

Jesus, Lamb of God

Worthy is Your name

Jesus, Lamb of God

Worthy is Your name

What Goes Around Comes Around

so, like the title says 'what goes around, comes around' meaning the things that I really want to forget then suddenly happen again ...

I should have say this, but it's true ...

that 'she' says that 'she' likes 'him' ... so I can't prevent it because everyone deserves it in their lives ...

I'm happy to hear 'she' says that ... but just now I still see the same old 'he' ...

this story is way to complicated to explain actually ...

well I'll keep it for myself saja lah ...

I don't want to bother about it anymore, but still the feeling that I want it to go away suddenly came back ... oh my ... what should I do ???

but for this time being I want to concentrate to my study, extra class, my KK and etc ...

want to get rid all of these school activities to finish ... I hardly study because of it ... it's okay, INSTALLATION and DISCHARGE of PREFECT 10/11 is coming soon ...

can't wait to discharge of being prefect ... quite tiring for all of us especially we will have to face this SPM lagi ...

my gosh ...

yay !!! can't wait for my cousin come here ... wanna hear her story and ask her about lots of things ... hope it will be fun to have her here and bring her jalan-jalan in Kuching ... YES !!!

Annoying or Jealous

so just now at school, I take over the PA for the morning assembly ...

and so 'he' also there ...

and it was unexpected when the 'she' suddenly came into the bilik guru also ...

and I was wondering why ... and actually she just want to be near to the 'he' ...

its like DiGi one ... I will follow you lah ...

but not too obvious ... she's making it more real ...

during the Bio class also me go crazy ... like what XP

and just now we were asked to choose the calon pengawas to try to do our duty like reading the prayer for the morning assembly ...

so me and Daisy also choose lah ...

then, for today one, we choose Rocky ...

quite good also ... but need to survey more lah ...

I see the confidence in him ... hmmm ... good ...

and make sure he keep it up ... FIGHTING !!!

so this Saturday, bring our parents to school for Hari Permuafakatan with the class teacher and also go and get the buku laporan ...

WHAT !!! teacher say must wear school uniform ... why ??? haiyo ... me don't care ... I wanna use the prefect t-shirt one ...

TO INFINITY and BEYOND !!!

quite busy lah ... dealing with the kelas tambahan ...

doing the peka lah ...

tuition lah ...

wow ... too tired ... but have to tahan also ... for my future bah ...

Money $$$ ...

so this year my parents are dealing with their expenditure and that is because for our tuition fee just because that is the only way they can help us in achieve our dreams and they want to see us success in life ... when my mother said that, I was touched ... because their parent were unable to give them(my parent) anything that they wanted but only able to give them love and education in which until now I'm very thankful to both of my parents that they never tired to sent us to tuition, pick us from tuition, sent us to school and also give us what we needed and the most thing that is called LOVE ...

Prefect

April 9th

first day of our prefect camp ... damn its tired ... we spot check the bags and cleaning up the accommodation for the calon ... imagine ... we have to sweep it up, mpo it up and waits until it dries up ...

then during the night we do the ice-breaking where we introduce ourself to the calon ... well that night is quite sweet for me ...

the at 1:30 am, we do the roll call to wake up the calon and play the Cina Buta where they have to be blind folded ...

then go round and round around the school the school compound and arrive at the tapak perhimpunan then we kacau2 them ...

too tired then we go back sleep lor ... but for me its not enough !!!

Planning For 2nd April 2010

0630 - wake up & prepare my box lunch ...

0730 - depart from home ...

0745 - arrival at the school ...

0800 - start the painting class ...

1100 - finish painting class & change my outfit ...

1200 - start meeting @ Prefect Room ...

1400 - have to dismiss earlier for Additional Mathematic tuition class ...

1700 - go to church ...

1800 - finally reach home ...