All The Best To Me

... August 20, Friday ...

this night I want to sleep quite late, and study my Biology ...

then, go on with my Additional Mathematics ...

Chemistry , then Physics ...

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thanks to Super Junior ...

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I won't be bored whenever I want to study ...

for the music that the gave me inspiration and energy ...

better get my engine start !!!

FIGHTING !!!

tension !!!

okay, straight to the point i'm worry right now ... why ??? SPM lah ...

* speechless *

SPM trial exam is coming ... so i gotta do my best for it ... I can't reverse the time and retake the exam ... I need TIME, SPACE and MUSIC ... I just can't study like that only ... I need someone who can study with me ... with Daisy, uuhhhmmm, too far, Fyie, uuhhhmmm ... don't know how to say already ... if everyday I have to face KK then, how can I study ... why must the Form 5 also yang kena attend KK frequently ... don't they know, it's just wasting of time but not all lah ...

now, I don't have much time to do my homeworks either ...

0630 - 1245 = school time

1330 - 1500 = extra class

1500 - 1730 = rest / cleaning / tea-break

1800 - 2000 = tuition

2100 - 0530 = sleep

I hate it !!!

why must got KK ??? and why must take too much until 3 ???

I'm Science students ... PHYSICS, CHEMISTRY, BIOLOGY,ADD MATH is more difficult than ART, GEOGRAPHY, ACCOUNTANCY bah ... don't they realize that ???

Happy + Jealous = ???

teenagers nowadays, well also including me do have to face those feelings ... for me, that feeling turn into STRESS ... that's odd ... we just can't avert that feeling as it comes naturally ...

well, in my case those feelings just like typhoon in me ... and it's hard for me to control them ... but with my friends by my side I feel good again ... SINGLE is good only for temporary period for us students ... LOVE is not going anywhere ... God knows everything ... He'll give someone who is more special and better for me ... I trust Him ...

we can't force LOVE ... LOVE cannot be shown by kissing, hugging each other ... its to see how we care for someone that we love and never let them hurt by us ... show them how you care about them and living a SINGLE live doesn't mean you will be LONELY ... people around you still care and love you more than you know ...

and being HAPPY seeing your love ones beloved and live with their love ones and there is NO POINT for you to be JEALOUS and instead you want them to live happily ever after ... let they live with their own way ...

SPM is coming soon AAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHH !!!!!!!!

wow ... I still can study when I was in Form 3 ... but this year ... waaaaa ... lot of things going on ... the KK stuff really buat KACAU lah ...

and this is our last year as a SENIOR in Form 5 ... i'm gonna miss how we have to wait for our turn during recess just to buy foods ...

we'll be free after SPM ... no more stay until evening for the extra class, the KK and after SPM ... I can't wait to take the driving license and roaming around the city with my friends ... ahahahaha ...

but the main point now here is the SPM ...

SPM is the most scariest things ever in my life ...

the subject increase ... and plus, we are the Science students ...

so far Physics, Chemistry, Biology I can go along very well ...

But I want to pass my Pendidikan Moral, Bahasa Malaysia, Mathematics and Additional Mathematics ...

I'm still struggling with my Additional Mathematics and my Mathematics ...

I really want them to get a least A or B+ ...

and not to forget my Pendidikan Moral with the 36 definisi and the nilai also ...

no more KK ... hope I can study quite well ... and think for my future and my dreams also ...

Holiday making me go CRAZY !!!

yup ... as the title said this holiday really get me sicker, crazier, lazier and no more time for me to do my revision ... as my mother is not here ... it was a big mistake actually ... well she shouldn't mad at me when she came back from kampung and she better don't ask me why ... doing to much washing at home ... really makes my hand peeled off ... i mean the skin just dried up and it feels so itchy ... DAMN i hate so much ...

well, i think quite a lot this holidays ... recall back what i've done wrong at school ... and I was trying to forget 'bout him but i just can't do it ... i keep try to remain distance from him ... i know he has been doing good for me ... and it's time for me to pay him back all the good things that he had done to me ... and while the other guy, hhhmmmmm ... wanna know who ??? well IT'S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS !!! ahahaha ... sorry guys really can't tell you about this ... well i absolutely never mentioned about his name in my blog ... and the only person who knew about this are only God and me ... ahahahaha ... well the second guy, really making me fall for him more ... i love his style, not too thin and not too short ... i guess we have the same interest that is in dancing ... wow ... love his dancing so much ... full of energy and charisma ... that's what i like ...

these days, since mom left home to Mukah, my cat, Chimew getting more sicker ... MAN !! i though he was going to end his life ... but i try to help him ... maklumlah sudah tua ... yup ... that cat alone came to our house and 'meow' in front of our house ... and i still remember that day ... it was Sunday 2007 if was not mistaken ... he was still young, small, cute and got his innocent faces on it ... and that morning, my mom quicky wake me up and tells me that there's a cat IN our house ... and you know how happy i was ... wow ... can't believe it ...

then my cousin from my mother's relatives came here and it's already one month since she's with us here in Kuching ... well she's just finish her study at KML, Labuan ... wow ... it was amazing to hear their story of how they live there, how they study, dressing, living and it is totally fun !!! i really wanted to go there ... but first i want to know in which major i wanted ... after that, we bring her to go around the Kuching ... when we go to Boulevard, sana kan ada penimbang berat ... so kami dua try lah ... 20 cent person each ... when she get up on the scale well the weight is kept secret ... while me, i was really hoping that i can gain more weight up to 50+ kg ... but in fact it shows 48 kg only
!!! why ??? because i used to dance a lot at my living room ... you know a way to decrease your weight is dance and dance and dance and dance ... wow ... never think that it works on me ...

and so guys ... i've been typing to much there ... and i guess that's all lah ... bye !!!
... Happy Holiday ...

Exams !!!

Finally!!! The day has come ...

Exam - I can have a short nap while waiting for the bell to ring

Exam - I can see my improvement

Exam - I can show my skills in solving problems

Exam - I can go crazy especially during History paper

Exam - Make my adrenaline rush while doing Chemistry and Physics

wow ... so many things can happen during exams ... I know it really makes me tired and sometimes bored but I kindda like it though ...

I keep study and study to achieve my target ...

"GO AHEAD, STAY AHEAD"

Normal

I wish I can have those feelings that I've been keeping before ...

and again, I was hoping if you can understand this feeling ...

whenever I into that eyes that keep staring at me,

really makes me insane ...

Wanna have a happy times like last time ...

it's so hard to find a person like you ...

and your name will be never erased from my heart ...

Seeing you smile from a far is not enough for me to have you in me ...

I shouldn't have ignoring you ...

or .... (to be continue)